This is an exerpt from a diary entry written on the train/bus home from work, around 4:30 pm.
I did good work cleaning yesterday. I walked home 5 1/2 miles because it was beautiful, 70 degrees. I did laundry, I wnet to the library and checked out 3 books, carrying them home in my bag. I carry 1 with me right now on my commute home on the train. I chose "Mere Christianity" by CS Lewis, I didn't read any today, yet. I am excited to clean today. I am excited to make myself a meal and spend no money. I am excited to read or watch a movie and knit. I woke up late today, but I had laid out my clothes the night before, and therefore was able to get to work on time. I went all day without a vape, I smoked 4 cigarettes today and I hope to only smoke 1 more before bed. And only if I have an afternoon/evening I am proud of. I am on edge today, but I don't thin in a bad way, I think only with excitement to move. When I get home I will change out of my work clothes into something comfy and I will work restfully, and I will rest workfully. I will write a letter, maybe, or 2, maybe, if I feel so moved.I will pray. I will smile even though there is no one to see it, and I will think fondly of those I miss without a pull to seek their attention. I will revel in the joy of distance. I will practice forgiveness because I'm a Christian, and I will practice forgiveness because is heals my heart, and I will practice healing becuayse I want to love everyone better. I will text back REDACTED, I will text back REDACTED. I will feel the weight on my sholders grow lighter. Yesterday I deep cleaned the litterbox, and I will scoop it before I go to sleep, and I will seek joy in taking care of my home. I will shower slowly, and brush my teeth slowly, and shave slowly, and lotion my body slowly, and seek joy in taking care of my home.
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